I felt God near me, and the morsels of His Word were enjoyable. I had been trying to read my Bible on a regular basis. I applied the plan to read the chapter from Proverbs that corresponds with the calendar day of the month since it has 31 chapters. It helped me begin the habit of spending time regularly feeding my spirit.
Then one day I started seeing a disturbing pattern. I wasn’t quite sure, so I skimmed for confirmation. Yep. It was there.
I saw myself accurately described in the verses I read. It was staring at me from the black text printed on the thin white paper of my Bible:
I. am. a. fool.
It was one of those moments when you get to the bathroom after sitting at the restaurant table with your friends, and you look in the mirror and discover what everyone else had probably already seen.
I have mustard on my cheek? Why does everyone pretend like they didn’t notice when they’re looking right at me?
It felt like that eye-catching bright yellow mustard. Embarrassment overcame my soul. Tears fell in torrents.
Why didn’t anyone tell me?
But people aren’t to be my Holy Spirit. It was the Lord who showed me myself while I read His Word:
-always right…..Proverbs 12:15
-easily offended…..Proverbs 12:16
-despised my parents’ instruction…..Proverbs 15:5
I discovered that I’d been living in Foolsville, and I wanted to move out that very day without securing a house elsewhere. I was on a journey following God, and nothing else mattered.
I had been wearing the garment of foolishness, and wanted a reputation change. He didn’t leave me hanging. He spoke to me there; I noticed almost every verse or passage that talked about a fool, countered with the characteristics of the wise person. Oh how I wanted to be that person! I resolved at that moment to undertake a study on wisdom.
Whoever trusts in his own mind is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom will be delivered. Proverbs 28:26 ESV
Yes, God, deliver me because I have been making stupid decisions!
I didn’t have a computer, and this was before the internet existed (can you imagine?). I borrowed a Strong’s Exhaustive Concordance and wrote down locations for scriptures on wisdom in the Old Testament, and then some from the New Testament. 189 in total. I was serious.
Over the next few weeks I wrote out 44 of those verses. I saturated myself in them. I repented. I began applying them to my life. I prayed them over my heart, and thanked God for His promises.
Over time, discernment became a new part of me. I saw God’s Word changing me where I couldn’t change myself. It was inevitable because He is faithful to keep His promises.
If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. James 1:5 ESV
When I think about what He’s done for me, tears fill my eyes. I am so grateful.
And I want the world to know that God’s Word is powerful, too!
How have you seen the transformation power of God’s Word in your life to help you overcome a part of your “old nature”?
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