When Hopelessness Invades

I close my eyes tightly, exhale a sigh, and try not to let one of the tears watering my eyes slip down my cheek for the thirtieth time today. I’m fighting off a hopelessness that has been trying to invade my thinking. I open my eyes; the tears win.

Where are You, God?

Hopelessness is godlessness. I remembered the phrase I learned years ago that I thought would never seep into my soul.

I let the tears fall freely now. They release some of the mounting pressure in my heart. The tissue box seems more of a steady companion than His promises of late.

Why do I forget? Why do I almost begin to think that He has abandoned me? “I will never leave you or forsake you.” Help me believe, Lord.

The Bench

I reach for the Words of Life, turning the worn pages between my fingers: I’m looking for hope. I need to be rescued from my own despair, from my own tangled thoughts of hopelessness that I’ve entertained. My eyes fall on a promise I’d forgotten:

He who has My commandments and keeps them, it is he who loves Me. And he who loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I will love him and manifest Myself to him. John 14:21NKJ

I focused on the last precious phrase, which was previously underlined: “…and will manifest myself to him.”

I do love You, Father. You said those who love You, You will also love. I keep Your commands. You promised to manifest Yourself to me.

If it’s Your promise, then why do You seem absent during all the trouble, problems and bad news that are my current lot in life?

He talks to me about…faith.

In reality, I’ve been wrapped in a blanket of discouragement, and it’s because I haven’t been walking in faith. “Now faith…is the evidence of things not seen.” (Hebrews 11:1) I haven’t been seeing answers―yet. I have to pick myself up from sitting on the bench facing Hopeless Valley, make an about face, and talk faith. It’s time to live faith.

So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. Romans 10:17

After making the decision to think, talk, and live faith, I feel different.

I feel…hope.

The corners of my mouth are up.

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9 thoughts on “When Hopelessness Invades

  1. This is really good Kelly. I don’t know if you have ever done Debbie Alsdorf’s Faith Dare but its a wonderful tool for discouragement, and just those seasons of dryness that we walk through. Its on sale at Amazon.

  2. Yes, I know this valley – been there many time (especially in the last two years) but the Lord has ALWAYS brought me out of the valley of the “shadow” and brought me back to the walk of faith. However, what most people who quote the verse “we walk by faith and not by sight” don’t understand is that a faith walk is HARD WORK – it is not a gentle stroll. But no matter how hard the work is the Lord is right there by our sides helping us along the path He has choosen for us.

    • Yes, it’s kind of a battle, the “fighting the good fight of faith,” which is when you decide to walk by faith and the devil comes at you to try to convince you that God’s word is not true. And you have to keep coming back with faith thoughts and faith words.

  3. Kelly, I’m genuinely sorry you’re going through a valley now. Not much anyone can say now. But we know Who promised us He would comfort us and go through the valleys with us. When I go through my valleys (and I have waded through plenty of them, some I was sure were quicksand) I like to read these verses from Habakkuk 33:17-18. Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls; yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will be joyful in God my Savior. Those words have given me comfort in many of my trials. I pray that you will remain in God’s will even though I know how difficult that might be for you now.

    • Thanks for the scripture. It is not easy for me to rejoice in the Lord when life is rough, but He keeps sending reminders, and He used you this time. 😉

      Walking in faith brings hope, and it has caused a turn around in me. But I do have to keep reminding myself to do so. The circumstances haven’t changed, but having a new perspective helps.

  4. Kelly, thank you for your honesty. My wife and I have been wrestling with these same questions. You know the struggle. I don’t need to describe it here.

    My wife is trying to separate her feelings from the truth. I’m listening to the discouragement, while still reminding myself of the truth.

    Part of me demands answers. Or at least some sort of understanding.

    I don’t think it will ever come. On this side of eternity. I know of no solution but to clutch and cling to my First Love. My heart hears and feels your struggle. Sending prayer for you.

    Hold on. It’s all we can do. And all He wants us to do.

    Look into His eyes. Let go of every other voice. Just look. I will join you.

    • Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. I will pray for you and your wife. The discouragement was starting to take hold of my life, and replace God’s promises. I had to make a decision to walk in faith. When I did, it brought hope. I had to rebuke the discouragement. We all struggle with it from time to time, but I mean it was overcoming me. I had to fight the devil, but I felt no strength. After I made the decision to walk in faith, my joy came back, my strength came back, my will to fight the devil came back. And I did some warfare. I have no idea what your situation is, or if any of this will help encourage you, but I will do some warfare on your behalf.

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