Just Not There Yet

It’s Sunday morning, and you take your cue when the house lights fade that it’s time to begin worship. You look up to the stage as the worship leader begins rallying those gathered into the presence of God. A bit of excitement raises your spirits as the band begins one of your favorite songs.

Everything is smooth until the lyrics unfold in the second song… and you’re just not there yet. Your heart does not reflect the lyrics. While you sing words like “I give You everything,” and “I belong to You,” the hypocrisy is weighing down what just escaped your lips and they all but fall to the ground. The lies you just sang to God are plainly manifest in your soul.

At that precise moment you come face to face with the dilemma that crept into your time of worship. Annoyance turns into defensiveness as you erect a stone wall in your heart against the song. “How could God expect me to give Him everything?” An argument ensues because you know you cannot lie, so therefore this cannot be your fault!

You sing along trying to remain in the unity of corporate worship. Your outward appearance is a shining example for the non-believer sitting nearby, but your heart has disengaged your flow with the “interruption” of this song. Yes, it is true – this time of worship is now ruined.

What should our response be?

It should be Biblical.

It should be honest.

“God, I hear the words of this song, but I’m just not there right now.”

God desires for us to love Him with no less than everything, but sometimes we come face to face with our fleshly nature that needs to be put to death. We aren’t in a glorified body yet. But using the excuse of being caught in the struggle between the flesh and the spirit shouldn’t be a cop out. Stop singing and choose to be broken.

Behold, You desire truth in the inward parts; and in the hidden part You shall make me to know wisdom. Psalm 51:6 NKJV

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise. Psalm 51:17 NKJV

“God I’m struggling right now. Help me overcome my flesh, and love you with all of me.”

He does not want us to ignore the struggle and keep singing in a fake surrender. (John 4:23-24) God is real and desires a real response from us. He wants genuine love from us even if its an honest confession and plea to turn our stony heart into a pliable one.

Question: How do you respond when you’re “just not there yet?”

3 thoughts on “Just Not There Yet

  1. You’re right! God doesn’t seek our worship only when we feel worthy or only when we have it all together. Rather, He wants ALL of our worship ALL the time. That means running to Him when we need Him. Thats worship too. Thats a proper response.

    Sometimes corporate worship becomes that time when we can see him clearly, “high and lifted up and His train filling the temple” and its in that moment that we surrender ourselves- wholly; and thats when pure worship flows. A beautiful exchange. Thats why I am so awsomized (made up word! =)) every time there is corporate worship. Because I know that His presence changes things.

  2. Pingback: When God Feels Far Away While Worshipping | KellyRBaker

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