Growing up, we were never allowed to watch movies with a PG-13 rating, but I allowed myself to indulge in the temptation as an adult. Several years ago I was invited to watch a PG-13 movie with a friend. A few times during that movie my spirit-man cringed, and I thought, I really should not be doing this. The devil possesses cunning timing. The opportunity to watch a PG-13 movie came again. I remember being really angry about something and I had that “I don’t care” attitude unchecked. So I watched it. During the movie, the same kind of appalling content that I had watched before was not so shocking. I subconsciously invited PG-13 movies into my entertainment repertoire for a few months. While I was still uncomfortable in my status quo, I watched rated R movies a couple of times.
The Lord really dealt with me. Somehow I woke up to the fact that I had really crossed the line. God kept bringing a verse to my attention:
I will set no wicked thing before mine eyes: I hate the work of them that turn aside; it shall not cleave to me. Psalm 101:3
At first I did not listen to Him because I didn’t want to. Surrendering was a process, but eventually I had to go back to my friend and explain my gradual inclination preceded by the news of my repentance. I wanted God more. I loved God more.
I analyzed the process of my desensitization. It was gradual. It was subtle. I have remembered this when I have been bothered by the actions of other Christian friends. Everyone is in a different place in their walk with God. It is not our place to judge, but to influence them to keep walking.
After that I was introduced to the ClearPlay DVD players, which have great content filters. (I should be getting paid for all the advertising I do for them!) Even with filtering, some movies you just do not watch anyway! My husband and I rarely go to the theater. We wait for the movie to come out on DVD and watch it on ClearPlay, only after checking out the content on http://pluggedinonline.com or http://screenit.com.
Some people probably don’t agree with me or don’t understand my choices, but I’m not sorry that I live this way. I don’t feel like I’m missing out. I’m getting a whole lot more of the joy of walking with my Savior!
Questions: What about you? Have you gone through a process of surrendering with something?