Writing in a journal helps you cut through all the chaos of life and hear your thoughts. It is a place where you can unearth desires and realize where your heart stands. It is a time to ask questions and seek to have them answered. It is the treasure of recording your history and your spiritual discoveries as you walk through life. At least this is been my experience. Have you ever kept a journal? (If you don’t, I highly suggest you do for a number of reasons.)
The irony of this awakening of our being to paper is that our thoughts are already known. God understands us. He knows the secret places of our heart. He smiles at us discovering the desires that He has already placed within us. Because He knows us through and through.
O Jehovah, You have searched me and have known me. You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thought afar off. You search my path and my lying down, and are acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Jehovah, You know it altogether. You have closed me in behind and in front, and laid Your hand on me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot go up to it. Psalm 139:1-6 MKJV
For You have possessed my inward parts; You have covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are marvelous and my soul knows it very well. My bones were not hidden from You when I was made in secret and skillfully formed in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my embryo; and in Your book all my members were written, the days they were formed, and not one was among them. How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they are more than the sand; when I awake, I am still with You. Psalm 139:13-18 MKJV
Either this can scare the living daylights out of us or it can be the most welcome news. I would say both responses are healthy. I sit in awe of this truth. How could someone love me so much that His thoughts of me are innumerable? But He does love us this much!
Have you ever seen the movie Conspiracy Theory with Mel Gibson and Julia Roberts? (If you ever do I suggest watching it with a device such as Clearplay that filters out the cursing and such.) Mel’s character was so in love with Julia’s character that his obsession drove him to discovering as much about her that he could. That is of course matchless compared to how thoroughly God knows us. We would cheat ourselves of the truth if we ever believed feelings of being unloved.
I can truthfully say that I don’t love Him this much. But I choose to try. It says so in my journal.